i wake up at 5pm on a monday evening, my dreams pulverized by the certain person who could probably hold (one of) highest positions of priority in my life, turning against me.

I am terrified of feeling emotions in dreams, they end up being too raw and powerful, that if my dream takes a turn for the worst, i get stuck in them, believing wholeheartedly that its real life. as if my mind is terrorizing me. its ridiculous how weak i get in my sub conscious.

but the bad dreams are starting again, and im beginning to get nervous about sleeping.

this is such a ridiculous cycle.

good morning.