lexapro
lamictal
propanolol
valium
my four newest friends. one stops my tears and makes me hyper. one makes me calm. one drwas strings on my mood swings. one puts me to sleep.
and all together they numb me and put a blindfold on my insanity. the block my senses and dry my tear ducts. anasthetasized and sensationless.the aproach me quetly, deaden my fear, wrap warm sheet around me, openeing up my pores, starve me and smile reassuringly while they inject numerous frozen reasons into my body.
i hate them. but i hold onto them with the fear that i may want them to go away.
melodrama stays.
my heart beat stabalizes.
i am me. somehow.
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