reinforcement is in order, of course!

i enjoy, greatly, how this course has pushed me to constantly reevaluate so many ideas, theories and morals. its given me this very new age, and yet old school, insight into analyzing. i fear to compare it with shopping, but it very much like it. you have these amazing amounts of theories ranging from fuck crazy to stark raving mad, and everything in between, and you get to figure out how you want to wear what. i love how psychology never tells you anything straight up, youre not forced in to believing anything. rather, your given the opportunity to construct your own opinion, your own personal philosophy.

what i have gained from this is a few extraordinarily simple points. perception is not truth, nothing is consistent, and you are not ever completely bound by what you do. this subject has forced me to critically evaluate everything i once thought was concrete. it turns out, nothing is every wrong, but nothing is ever right either; and who you choose to be depends on how you choose to see.

i believe that psychology has healed me in ways shrinks couldnt. i believe that it has been my only reason for growth.

its silly how i constantly apply human qualities to a mere subject, but i do feel comforted by it, and i feel ridiculously anxious by it.

i remember when i was probably in the 7th or 8th grade, my mum explained very briefly "psychology is studying to understand why people behave the way they do." and while i was dead set on literature for the longest time, the prospect of psychology always lingered. the moment i figured that literature just wasnt going to cut it, i knew exactly where i had to be, and now im here.

so its my last week of official school, my last exams for my under grad. its been tough, and the las minute studying i have constantly provided myself with is now producing fever and random burning sensations on my skin, that i tried to diagnose and ended up with herpes, neural disorder, bronchitis, meningitis and mercury consumption, so it would thus lead me to believe that i am just suffering from a case of pre-exam anxiety. also im dog gone tired.

its been a rough three years, but im pretty sure im coming out all the wise.

at 23 and all, at least i really did it!

woo hoo for me.