with and within.

today the clouds were rainbow colored and only i could see that, through my brand new ray bans that make me feel very authoritarian.

there are somethings that make me feel very powerful,

like coffee, or jumping like a crazy monkey alone at the Prodigy gig,

like knowing something someone else doesnt,

and secrets,

like a mans hands between my thighs,

and cut off shorts with high heels,

or going for a very fast run at 2 am,

like being able to smile when i need very badly to cry very hard,

or being able to disguise my anger with tolerance,

or tequila,

or arguing for something i believe in strongly,

like very good hair days, an days my head doesnt hurt,

or being the only nerd who got a distinction,

better still, being the only geek who stumped the lecturer,

or tucking into a carls junior thick burger at the beach, with a side of chilli fries and coke,

or sometimes its just needs no reason.

i think its weird to see rainbows when no one else can.

but i feel good about it.