soulmates

i believe i have had two soulmates in my less than perfect minimal 23 years of living-breathing exisistance. i've fallen in love enough of times, but that feeling of intense connection, only twice.

the first time, i found my soulmate amidst heat of passion and anger. we were pulled toward each other with so much force, we'd collide and bounce of each other, only to build up force to collide again. our strength lay only in our inability to be with each other.

but the second time, there were no fireworks, or orchestral love making. and while that made me anxious and untrusting, i began to find solace in the silence of our kisses, and the primal violence of our love. my senses were not heightened to their individual strength, but merged together to create 360 degree ethereal understanding. time gradually turned transparent and effervescent, as if i could see through now into forever, rendering us timeless.

sometimes we find our soulmates.

sometimes, we mould to make them.