me and my chacha

i have very reformed and (self proclaimed) radical morals and principals.

but when in comes down to some stuff, you can be damn sure im an old fashioned girl, yes i am!

like today.

i do not like to have my pants down, my legs spread awkwardly with my chacha on display, in a brightly lit clinic with two chinese ladies pushing and prodding me where, well, i shouldnt be pushed and prodded, not by two chinese ladies!

tell me im stuck in the middle ages, but i dont think anyone should see me naked unless i plan to have sex with them. and i cant seem to say this enough, but i dont want to have sex with chinese ladies!

its horrible!

evolutionarily my body went into overdrive.

my netherland, exposed to two women. madly vulnerable! if i am a threat to them they can render me without baby giving organs if they want to and render me a lesser suitable mate!

oh no!

my combat instincts went into overdrive.

if they want to hurt me and take my wallet (which contains numerous coupon cards and a little over 20$ and a picture of kurt cobain) they totally can!

Run away!!

my moral instincts went into overdrive.

this is not right. this is just not right.

I feel used!

and basically, I DONT WANT CHINESE LADIES TO BE PEERING AWAY AT MY CHACHA!!

geeez.

im not having a good day.

plus, those chinese ladies, they also have my self respect.

damn.

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