dont you dare 'awww' me.

my life is progressively getting very dry. today i felt overjoyed because i managed to get the elective i wanted. its that simple now.

maybe its the lack of any sort of intoxication. maybe i need to get laid. maybe i need to spend more time reading and less time on the computer. i don't know, but i know this, i've got this very uninspiring streak going on. it is quite disillusioning.

maybe its just me again, that cant be ruled out. today, when i got back home from a very short day at school i couldn't even bear to listen to music, and thats a first. furthermore, in the last week my headaches have started again, im sure its something about the weather here.

im not really complaining. its difficult, sure, but its far from impossible to deal with. plus i feel so different than how i did perhaps a year ago. i could be sixteen again, but with better emotional control.

so whatever it is...

for now i think ive been squeezed out of everything i could say here. its been a long time since i have felt madly inspired by someone, or something or some feeling. and with the way things are going, i'm sure its going to be a while. so i'm going to stay off the blog for a bit. i dont want to come here to write lame little Dear Diary entries about my day. its not how it started. im done trying to force it. maybe like any scored lover, it just needs space and time.

i suppose it's ciao for now,

until the next muse (or something like that).