Catch.

there is something that is missing, me feels. of course, there is the lack of inspiration, the lack of instigation, the lack of sexual relations, the lack of grass, the lack of mad nights and mad friends, the lack of confidence, the lack, the lack, the fucking lack.

but with all this missing, there still is something else i cant quite put my finger on.

a person, an animal, a thing, an emotion, a feeling? what is it?



my thoughts wonder about the trust. is the world the way i see it seen through idealistic eyes. hopeing for a positive? or is it cruel to the last emotion, the way he sees it? where is the difference between right and wrong? what does anyone care anyway?



i want to catch that uncatchable fish. hold it firmly and then let it free back into the ocean.catch, hold, release.
but the feeling should last forever.